The break up

Chapter One

“You’re a great girl I know you will find someone better than me.” He said.

Tears pooled down my cheeks as I hold on to our cordless phone suppressing my sobs. I wish he’s not a coward breaking up with me over the phone but he has a good excuse. He lives five thousand miles away from me across the ocean and country borders. For that, I am quite glad he even has the courage to tell me over the phone and not leave me hanging.

“Sam? Are you alright?” he asked with concern.

“Of course I am not alright.” A voice yelled out inside my head. “Yes, I’ll be fine.” I managed to tell him coldly. “That’s right Sam keep the indifference. Don’t let him know that it hurts like hell.”

“That’s good to hear then.” He said in relief. “I thought you’d take this hard and hate me.”

“Obnoxious jerk.” I cuss at him inside my head. “I won’t take it against you. It’s entirely my fault.”

“I wish you didn’t have to leave. I couldn’t have met her.” He said.

“The nerve of this guy blaming everything to me.” I bit my tongue trying hard not to swear out loud. “I thought you’d wait for me.” I whispered.

“I did.” He honestly replied. “I just can’t do it anymore.”

I closed my eyes as my heart broke into pieces. He’s the first guy I dated. He’s the first guy I loved.

Yes.

Loved.

I couldn’t say I still love him while he is tramping over my heart.

“Can I ask you something?” I got a grip and sighed. I just have to ask this one question and I think I’ll be fine.

“Sure.”

“Do you still love me?”

I know it’s a stupid question I just have to hear it. The more it hurts the easier for me to move on. My pattern of thinking might be a little obtuse but I believe in that. I want to hate him and right now love is stronger than hate.

“Yes.” he answered bitterly. “I love you both. Maybe I love you more but you’re not here.”

The line went silent as seconds passed and I can only hear his heavy breathing. He sounds like he’s crying.

“I’m sorry Sam.” He said. “I love you but I don’t think it will work on between us with the distance and all. I’m a man too. I have needs.”

That’s the moment I break down into tears and I couldn’t hide it anymore.

It hurts so much.

He has been very patient with me and never demanded intimacy. I closed my eyes as I put my palm on my mouth controlling my sobs.

The gentleman that promised to wait for me is sleeping with another woman.

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