{Bonus Chapter} - Kara

{Kara P. Aycure} -- Back Story:

 

Ever since I was little, I always thought I was invincible. No matter what I did or thought, I thought I'd be able to get away with it. My mother never taught her little girl that that wasn't how the world worked. Or even cared of my existence. My mother sat me down one day and told me:

"Kara, honey, the world is hungry. Hungry for money. Its literally a dog eat dog world. The world isn't pretty but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If you want to see the world beautiful, then it is. But before I die, I want to die knowing that I told you that the world with eat you up and spit you out like nothing. Do not become a product of yourself. They will use you."

I was little then, that whole speech made no sense to me of course but it stuck in my mind. Like an angry wasp looking for a victim.

About 2 years later, my mother died when I was 9 years old. It was a drunk driver that killed her. I'll never forget then pain in my dad's eyes when he had to break down to his 9 year old daughter of what happened to her mother. Ever since my mother's death my dad became very distant from me. At age 10, I finally realized that he didn't see his daughter the same way as he used to. When he looked at me, there was emptiness. No love at all. Like I was just a job for him to fulfill day in and day out. I no longer felt as special as I used to. I no longer felt like a princess. I no longer felt invincible because his empty eyes stuck me at every glance.

After a while, I think my father just gave up on me. He didn't talk to me, he didn't teach me what a young woman should know. I had no one at age 10. Then when my father lost his hope, he gave me to my aunt at age 13. I was my aunt's slave. She sat on the couch while she watched me do every chore. Mopping, dusting, laundry, garbage, cooking, setting the table, dishes. It was too much to bear at age 13. I cried myself to sleep some nights. I broke down but I swallowed it.

At age 19, I went to college, got my master's in entrepreneur studies and opened my own coffee shop when I was 23. But at that point in my life I saw life extremely different. I wanted to be comforted but I looked in all the wrong places. I became an alcoholic for 2-3 years, I knew it was a problem so I sought out immediate help. I knew drinking wouldn't solve my problems one bit. Then I started talking to men, actual men and fell in love with the feeling of being around men, how they made me feel. It was like an addiction to love itself. I never had a long term relationship. I thought I was capable of it but every time I start a relationship, they end in about a year. If I was single for too long, I felt depressed.

In the midst of my "depression", I met Elias when I was 25. He was a true man. But instead of falling in love with love, I fell in love with Elias. He took me in, nursed me back from my "depression", helped me forget my past and loved me. Elias would have his moments where he neglected me verbally but I knew he didn't mean it because once he had realized what he done, he'd be distance, to let me take a breather then come back to me. I soon learned that his neglecting was a signal that he was stressed. That's when I told him he ad to change. He couldn't keep neglecting me when he was stressed. And he did change. He was 33 and I was 29 when we got married.

Then for some reason, I momentarily got disconnected from the love we shared. I met a man looking for a job, willing to be a butler. His name was Bryon, so young, 24 years old. He was vibrant, I once again fell in love with love. I lived 2 separate lives. I had told Bryon that I was single, looking for a butler. He took the job and I gave him a separate time slot to avoid Elias. On days Elias was out of town for weeks, Bryon was my temporary husband. He satisfied me. Both emotional, mentally and physically.

I don't mean to cheat on Elias but it hard to control my addiction of love. And once again I start thinking I'm invincible...

~End of Bonus Chapter~

Author's Notes: Hi readers!! How was this chapter? I wanted her back story to be heartfelt but not too much. I hoped I achieved that haha. I'm thinking about starting another story. A Slice of Life story but I'm not sure. I'll most likely do it. Anyways, I hoped you enjoyed this bonus chapter, Elias's back story is next then Bryon's. I'm not going to introduce all of the characters at once. I feel like it'll lose it's effect haha so when Kara's lover (not the butler) is introduced in a chapter, the next chapter will be the bonus chapter for his backstory. Thanks for reading!! ^^ ♥