always

It hurts. To see you like this, it hurts. I see you as perfect, flawless, yet you’d shake your head, disagree and laugh it off. I always say that it’s silly, that these people are only looking for attention, that they can take it out on other things but understand I don’t mean it. What I say is the complete opposite to what I mean. When people look at you they’d never suspect it, I know I didn’t. You are a truly beautiful person but you decide to pick of the petals of flaws and not look at yourself as a whole flower. At school you hide the pain and anger behind the smile that grimaces your face and at home you twist and turn unleashing a tornado. When I’m near you I try to understand the sadness that you exhibit but can’t put my finger on it. Sad, she’s always sad, why we’ll never know but I don’t think you’ll either. You’re like the battery of a phone; you continue to drain throughout the day till you’re left with nothing. But every time you’re plugged in again you don’t seem to gain strength. You stay the same.

You always think about others but for once let others think about you. When we talk behind your back don’t mistake it for judging you because we’d never do that. We don’t say that you’re messed up or stupid. We brainstorm. We brainstorm on ways we could help you. Because understand this we don’t want to see you like this, I don’t want to see you like this. I don’t want you to hurt inside, I don’t want you to fake a smile. I’d rather you let us see you for who you really are, broken torn or ripped apart. If you don’t want to talk about it then I can respect that but know that I will never stop and I will never give up. I know it hurts, actually I don’t. People like me will never understand. I can always try putting myself in your shoes but I will never experience it firsthand. I won’t understand your pain, why you cry yourself to sleep every night, why your skin is embellished with straight lines, I won’t. But I’ll always be the shoulder to cry on, I’ll always be your wall and I will always be the sponge that soaks up all your sadness. I’ll ride this rollercoaster with you, I’ll comfort you and I’ll destroy everyone for you. Because when you need me or don’t, I’ll always be right around the corner. Always.